me: why do i even bother blogging

Wow. I did it again. I wiped out everything on my other blog and started it out again. I am simultaneously quite amazed and disgusted with myself. It is almost as if I am ashamed of my previous lives but I am starting to think that I have wiped the slate clean one too many times already!

A half-year in review:
1. Travel - Embarked on several work related overseas trips; of which the first one started in March to Thailand. Several exciting new cities I visted include some key cities in China such as Beijing, Nanjing, Ningbo and Kunming. I also spent almost 5 weeks in Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur

2. Work - (a) Promotion! (b) Leading new projects with juniors to order around. (c) A slightly more decent income so much so that I can now at least apply for my own credit card!

3. Family life - Finally, a household of working adults. We are also realising the importance of staying together so we are thinking of renting a new house within the same estate for my brother and I. So perhaps - some personal space at last? Grannies are still doing wonderfully, and that is more than I can ask for in this aspect these days.

4. Personal life - Am still developing that core of 16 friends - perhaps I can truly only count on 10 of them. With some little faith, perhaps I can push that count up to 14, but I am still working on it. My love life is in shambles, and the worse part is - I am now willing to walk away from it all. This is not going to be pretty, but the worst is yet to come.

5. Health - I quit. I think. On another note, I also have personally committed myself for about 3 events this year including the Terryf0x, the vertical marathon and the SC marathon 2005.

... the rest of the year looks pretty good still, but the usual deep sense of "lost", misguidance and the lack of purpose, strength and meaning are all creeping in on me. There are so much to do - such as to study again - study what?; to love again - love who?; to join my parents in business etc. More of such useless musings another day..

Meanwhile I am embarking on several new projects and one of them involves me packing my room again. Every year, 3 times a year I go into this craziness - how can I ever make this less painful than it should?

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