It was a company get away at the beachside town of Krabi, southern Thailand. I enjoyed myself.
This was despite the challenge of remaining positive amidst all my colleagues, especially since that my heart's long left them way back in March.
My roomie did a tarot card reading session for me. It was her first reading for someone else. I was startled by its accuracy - not only the cards that were picked - which were mostly in the suite of cups and wands, but also in their positions which provides the spatial and time dimensions. Some cards were the "3 0f wards", "ace 0f cups" and the 8 0f cups". I strongly related to "9 0f sw0rds" in the position of future obstacles. Most of everything can be summarised as 1) anticipating/ managing change 2) positive relationships with the family, romanticism and more importantly, opportunities
But to be fair, having my tarot card reader constantly referring (reading off) to the little attached book should discount the accuracy of the reading a bit!
FYI: Instead of an "insights only" blog, I might switch the tone of this blog as a more regular update of my daily thoughts - each day is so urgent now, I feel like bursting sometimes.
Am I ready? Will I ever be?
We always ask for tangibles to understand more about the higher power. Usually these tangibles come in the form of miracles and are often selfish. But when unfortunate things happen, we often blame it off at the higher power too. And there are simply too many related swear words to attest to this latter.
I broke my spectacles last night. 
This is the second time I broke my spectacles in my 17 years of wearing them. I seldom ever keep a spare as my spectacles are always too expensive and my power degree fluctuations are too extreme.
Have I ever mentioned that my spectacle lens are made of glass and that I drop them off my 2 metre bed every other month for the last couple of years already?
I dropped it off the side of the wash sink in my bathroom. It stemmed from an action which I do twice a day when washing up to and from bed. I was simply devastated and disbeliving.
I reflected in the aftermath and realised that in the hours before the incident, I was brimming with negative vibrations of thoughts and actions. I was already stomping all over the house, flipping switches of all the electronics and in the midst of bashing and climbing up the walls. And in culmination of the entire evening's feelings of fustration, senseless anger and pent up restlessness - I broke down.
Project a little faith: The power of positive vibrations/ The costs of negative vibrations
Monetary costs: US$200+
Time costs: Unimaginable.
I could remain angry, but I (after some reluctance) am choosing to face it, learn the lessons and thank God - for the revelation, the show of faith and how it could have been a whole lot worse. No , I am not even going to think about how much worse, so just run along now and have positive vibrations for the rest of your life now.
Sleep, wake up. Then sleep and wake up again....
Despite all the things that we do everyday, sometimes, when I look back it is rather difficult to remember what differentiates each day or even each year from the other. As the years go by, one year becomes another year - and then what? It was easier while younger, as we had school and every phase there were some rites of passage. But now, what do we have?
So when I was 23, I had promise myself to go to Inner Mongolia at 25 - while I am still working towards that (don't hold your breath on this), I think I will do the project runrun. So, bite my dust, wuzzies. ;)
The marathon is a long-distance road running event of 42.195 km (26.2 miles; 26 miles 385 yards; or 46145 yards). While "impossible is nothing", frankly, the pain is definately going to be "something".
Expected date of completion: 3 Dec/ 9 Dec Sun (2006)
Time of completion: Complusary = 6h and less
Time of completion: Being silly = 4.5 h-5h and less - 21.097 is 2:34h
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